Thick, blinding fog
Rising slowly from the dark
Surrounds and fills me whole
I no longer see
My feet struggle to stand firm
Slowly my heart sinks
Deep within
A spark, a fire, an eternal compass
Nudges me onward
One step, one breath
A few steps more
I fall, face first
Instinct kicks in
My hands raise me up
Dirty and broken, I catch a glimpse
Of something so precious and pure
Suddenly I’m propelled
Wings lifting my weary soul
I feel life, I see light, all around me
I know not certainty
Only in this moment:
Grace
Last weekend I had the immense pleasure of being a part of a Poetic workshop, hosted by two amazingly talented and gorgeous gals Leah Davies and Megan Gogoll.
Eight women (and my happy little munchkin Ella) gathered in a circle and shared a love of writing, the divine feminine and living from the heart. There was yoga, meditation (by Fiorella Klein, a total goddess) delicious snacks and raw, juicy poetry.
The poem above came out onto paper in only a few minutes. The less I thought about rules and rhyming and what’s right or wrong, the more it flowed. It’s about dealing with post-natal depression, something that hit me hard after my first child, and I’ve seen only in tiny glimpses since my second was born six months ago. It’s something I’m keenly aware of as I know how debilitating and frightening it can be.
But as I read the poem out loud to this group of girls, tears fell rapidly from my tired eyes. They were tears of despair for what has been, but also tears of relief for what is. I’m so grateful to be so positive and energetic as a mama of two, even though it’s been anything but easy these last few months.
Poetry, I love you. For getting in deep past my thoughts and into my emotions. For being raw and precious and silly and wondrous. For having no rules. For bringing us gals together on a sunny Saturday afternoon to laugh, love and share our hearts.
Love
Oh my lady frankie. All the emotion that resonated that day I feel again in these beautiful words. So raw, so vulnerable, so true. Thank you for sharing your depth with us beautiful. And please keep writing poetry Xx
Thanks for your guidance honey, and for your sweet comment. So appreciated. Poetry forevs! xx
I can feel the release in this poem. The act of exploring and then transcribing the words from that deep place within has now created an opening. Some space. Do you feel it? Your words are divine. Your truth is divine. You, my dear, are divine. Big Poetic love to you xxx
Oh yes, I could feel the release on the day. Beautiful! Thank you again and a million times more xxx
Wow Kris. This is SO beautiful. Thank you for sharing xo
Thank you lovely Chloe for your sweet comment. Sharing poetry still feels a bit brave for me… bring it on I say! xx
Thank you so much for sharing your poem, Kris! It was so powerful when you read it aloud during the workshop! That’s so great that you’ve committed to one poem a week — I should follow suit! <3
Hey Julia thanks for your sweet comment! I’m only journalling my poems at the moment, hopefully more to come on the blog soon. And yes, some of them rhyme! Hope you’re well x